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jnjalving@gmail.com: Lady of Miracles 2/2

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    Marianismo

    Uses and Customs

    “First the woods

    and then the women,”

    those talamontes taunted.

    Forest rapers.

    Illegal loggers, bad government,

    and cartels.

    The village men?

    Didn’t know what hole

    to shit out of, sooner raise a hand

    to beat their wives

    than wipe their own ass.

    70% loss, mushrooms gone,

    mother tongue starved.

    Fifteen women had enough.

    Sticks, firecrackers, threadbare

    shawls, and masks

    against thugs and police

    with AK-47s.

    They took five hostages

    in a stone church, made barricades

    of burnt out cars.

    Those bells rang

    high over women with seized

    machetes and guns.

    The villagers rallied.

    Purged them in one—

    a menstrual clot.

    Their fogatas burned

    for nine straight months,

    became a pulse, a forge.

    Signals, defense, cooking

    and more.

    From mothers they learned,

    everything that ever mattered

    passed kitchen to kitchen,

    Mother to daughter.

    The right to rule

    their own territory upheld

    by Mexico’s judiciary.

    The women restructured

    their entire society.

    They replanted their trees,

    went jogging at night.

    One bonfire

    remains, the beating heart,

    where ten women gather

    to discuss affairs.

    “Things can always be better,”

    said sensibly over stew.

    If the forest is a house,

    and Cheran is a kitchen,

    you might say

    a woman’s place is the home.

    As usual, men get it wrong

    about who’s got

    the huevos.

    Archetypical

    Listen, listen,

    gather ’round my cauldron,

    the best pair on this green earth

    is some stern, gruff warrior woman

    and her fancy peacock husband.

    I’m talkin’ imperial concubine shit.

    Long, thick hair, thick lashes, chest resonance.

    Raspiness, accent curly and homey

    like tigrado sheepskin.

    Listen, woman’s got preferences.

    Don’t you ask this fool

    ’bout no power tools, hell no.

    Does electric guitar count?

    He should make good sounds.

    I’m talkin’ Spike Penny Dreadful Gomez Addams shit,

    ‘cept She’s a sunshine Terminator

    full fat froth over those hot goth lips—

    do you see my fuckin’ vision?

    My love, Osiris.

    I’ll pull a Frankenstein.

    It’s bedtime with Isis when I read his rites,

    way I spit tongue twisters off the Book o’ Life.

    Remix on Dracula, Castlevania,

    Hades and Persephone—

    yeah, I know, I rolled my eyes.

    I’m talkin’ satin bowerbird shit,

    his woman’s favorite colors

    are his entire personality.

    She is not easily impressed.

    Lemme tell you ’bout men:

    They gotta know who’s Boss,

    who’s Baby,

    who’s a Good Boy,

    and who among them

    is the Best.

    Writers’ rooms hate His ass—

    shit, just ask Jesus—

    ’cause he’s the only One

    a Goddess be fuckin’ with.

    Want a better world?

    Build a Better Man.

    Ya’ll just petty sons

    of Judas Iscariot.

    La Llorona

    Heard people dream

    ’bout goin’ to work naked.

    School or some shit.

    Wouldn’t know what that’s like.

    Dangers of a creatrix,

    they ain’t just nightmares,

    it’s gore-ing the lily,

    a crucible amaranthine,

    older a woman gets

    it’s hardly hyperbole.

    As it goes,

    if you would know,

    do not fear to see.

    Notice she’s always crazy

    for shrieking, weeping.

    Only his hurt is holy.

    Take a plain clothes office buildin’

    and put a sea of howlin’ faces

    strainin’ through metastasized flesh

    burstin’ at the seams.

    Fry that amygdala early.

    Don’t ever look away.

    Call your target by name

    and incinerate.

    Remember that scene

    in Smoke Signals?

    Where the very worst insult

    in Thomas’ arsenal is to say

    you make your mother cry

    and ask

    what are you doing with your life?

    When my Mother greets me,

    her smile’s all teeth.

    Dog Star

    Some dreams have sequels,

    total recall of more than you know,

    something greater

    than the sum of its parts.

    My back was injured

    and I bed bound, and boy

    if you can’t move topside

    you’ll do it underground.

    All the way down.

    A place I know well.

    The sky was pitch black,

    like the backside of time itself,

    unblinking over an unlit below

    somehow visible. I know now

    that it was the sprawl of Mexico.

    Lost to a flood. Uninhabited.

    But trust

    some asshole left their dog behind,

    still chained in the yard.

    Guess that’s what I came for.

    A big fat black lab or some such.

    This boy ate good. Largely unconcerned

    with his fate. Made no move

    to escape. Glossy and healthy.

    I broke the chain easily,

    hoisted this jolly idiot

    into a fireman carry

    only to wade

    miles

    through unknown territory.

    Shit, he was heavy.

    But, he was happy,

    so much potatoes

    on my shoulders.

    I made quick work

    of the labyrinth.

    Junk jungle of refuse,

    tangled.

    I found

    the farthest edge

    of “town.”

    Then

    by the dumpster

    of a pristine gas station,

    the ugliest dog

    I’d ever seen.

    Hairless, emaciated,

    twisted into unnatural shape,

    backwards legs, missing teeth, drooling,

    cowering.

    Said alright buddy,

    you’re coming too.

    I’ve still got arms so

    we’ll figure it out.

    He was so scared

    of the light,

    certain I’d hit him,

    nursed his abandonment.

    For all I’ve got teeth,

    I can still be soft and sweet,

    and there’s never been a dog

    wouldn’t come to me.

    So Fatty ‘cross my neck

    and Scaredy ‘cross my chest,

    I hit the last leg

    of the journey. Jumped

    onto a moving train

    into night, we got out

    us three.

    Xolotl

    Round two

    of Disaster Pet Rescue

    had me digging rubble

    off an aquarium.

    Buried

    this pale fish lizard thing,

    frilly and gilly, smiley face.

    God damn it

    gotta carry a tank.

    When I woke,

    where pain had been

    full tilt orchestra,

    now a shut door.

    A dead silent room.

    Where the fuck

    did it all go?

    How?

    I never took drugs.

    All oxy accounted for.

    I am occasionally

    somewhat stubborn.

    Cold body, spine sweat.

    I could walk again.

    First of all,

    no way that guy was real,

    Google triangulated his ass up.

    Axolotl. Water dog. I’ll be damned.

    In shrinking and polluted waterways

    they choose to stay

    instead of mature on land.

    Stuck. Backward. Yet.

    They outlive their peers by wide margin,

    and unlock an ability medically significant.

    Axolotl regenerate.

    Dismemberment, damage

    to body, brain, or spine matters not.

    They just…fix shit.

    Put it back

    the way it was.

    It was there,

    and then it just wasn’t.

    Another thing:

    named for Xolotl,

    a god of the underworld.

    The ugly twin.

    Hideous, mutilated, misfortunate,

    filthy, diseased. You guessed,

    a dog.

    Finest Moments

    I wandered

    as a child. Knew every dog

    in the tweaker ghetto.

    Also some old folk, here and there.

    Knew enough

    to never trust men. But one friend

    in common, man’s best.

    I farmed affection,

    muzzles, tongues, and tails

    through a chain link fence.

    All I needed.

    Now dogs like to dig

    places they shouldn’t,

    get into shit,

    things people want hidden.

    That’s what Xolotl did.

    Dug up the bones

    of humanity, drug them out

    for his beautiful twin to see.

    The winged serpent of heaven

    had to bleed.

    Regenerate.

    I have a spot

    in my garden. It’s dark red.

    Stained the cement, naked

    when I hit downward dog

    to vomit wine.

    No running water, not even a pot

    to puke inside.

    Me and Guinevere

    in the moonlight.

    Corgis were bred for herding.

    I have a spot

    on my low back. A mole.

    Looks a bit like a dog’s nose.

    ‘Bout where she’d boop ya

    if you broke formation.

    Biggest lie the devil tells ya

    is that you’re alone.

    August 3, 2025
    environment, folklore, history, mystery, storytelling

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    Banshee

    Sacred Heart

    With some sensitivity

    you may see it.

    Expressions, quirks, gestures

    and movements

    in people of all sorts.

    Snapshots.

    The same child their mother saw.

    Some babe in a basket

    the current carried off.

    You should know

    every day a mother says goodbye

    a little more.

    Prays the hands that take you

    as tender as hers.

    If it’s in my palm,

    I am careful.

    She said I came to her

    in a dream of a sweeter before

    and told her

    his time on Earth was done.

    She was wailing

    before she woke up.

    Novena

    Nine is quite a number,

    not for the faint of heart,

    worlds on the tree of life,

    days Odin spent upside down

    so the runes might reveal themselves.

    Ninth is Hagalaz, Hela and Holda, the violent storm.

    Cups, pentacles, wands, and swords.

    Wishes granted, garden of thought,

    bitter struggle and dark night of the soul.

    Hermit with lantern turned inward—

    cliffnotes, my scholarly approach.

    Well here’s one you haven’t heard:

    Oya the Orisha,

    mother of nine dead children,

    each a different color

    in the rainbow of her skirt.

    She is a warrior, a lashing tempest.

    Harbinger of sweeping change,

    guardian of the village market

    as well as the cemetery gates.

    Mighty winds.

    A witch. Ferocity and gentleness.

    Some would consider

    her gifts a punishment.

    My purple candles

    are a nod to this.

    Crossroads

    where a woman decides

    between comfort, attention, acceptance,

    or respect.

    White Rabbit

    He recalled a childhood

    embittered by his father’s hand.

    His mama found the strength,

    and into the woods they went.

    Homeless? A camping trip.

    Clean, warm, and fed.

    She foraged, trapped, and worked

    someplace he wouldn’t find.

    Told wonderful stories

    every night before bed—

    shadows on the ceiling of a tent.

    He wasn’t afraid.

    She took those black eyes

    and his mama made

    chandeliers from what remained.

    Branches and lanterns

    in the back of their van.

    He changed his surname as a man,

    so I took the compliment

    when he said we were the same.

    When she said she’d claim me

    if I ever found a serious someone

    but was too ashamed to bring him home.

    She’s who I have in mind

    when I say:

    May you be to your child

    a welcoming wilderness. You know,

    mamas are the real magicians.

    Loved One

    Lord I shed a thug tear

    for this small female jaguar

    trying to make it work

    in a jungle somewhere.

    She was so young.

    Fucked two assholes

    so her single cub

    would be left alone.

    Every hunt was struggle bus,

    but she always pulled through.

    Then one day she came home

    and her baby was gone.

    Some snake swallowed it whole.

    She tracked it down

    and ripped it apart

    just to consume

    its body herself.

    She let the snake rot.

    Heard its little bones crunch.

    That’s what it tastes like

    in your mouth.

    Postpartum

    Watch me

    go to bat for the baby killers.

    Sethe and Medea did nothing wrong,

    fight me about it. Better to die

    unmolested, your mother’s sons,

    than to needlessly suffer, to be groomed

    by a master or father, to turn

    around and inflict that same hurt.

    Give me

    my lady annihilators. Full scorched earth.

    Boudican Destruction Horizon.

    Rome can fuck itself.

    I’ll have it burn.

    She worked sixty hours

    and he left dirty diapers on the floor,

    stay at home what for? Gaming on the couch.

    Newborn next room crying,

    Nonverbal banging on the tub,

    and if she thought for some long minutes

    to hold him under,

    bitch I don’t judge.

    Underdogs

    Must have chugged

    Huginn and Muninn’s draft in the womb,

    got 0.50% on the big bad swan juice,

    salt enough to swallow sins like the ocean,

    crumple steel ships just tin cans

    at these depths.

    Come home to mama.

    Now, we were all tired,

    four tens manual labor is a lot,

    but shit that’s just how well we got on,

    so we packed into a tiny apartment

    and drank.

    When I walked in

    the baby of the crew

    was white girl wasted,

    everyone on sight half bemused

    and half offended. Yuppie church wife

    passive aggression. Bless your heart.

    Well as usual

    he found his way to my lap,

    babbling along while I played with his hair,

    and White Girl took bets on if he’d dare.

    Rocky, A-Train, and Irish said nay.

    I’m Apollo

    for landing a rugby jock on his ass

    with the back of my hand.

    Finally,

    baby teeth opened his eyes

    and announced to the room

    that I was black inside.

    Snort. Okay. Alright.

    That’s fair, it’s fine.

    Then he specified,

    his mother

    raised a gay black son

    alone in a KKK town.

    See what I lacked in melanin,

    I made up for in tannins,

    grit, guts.

    Sometimes

    it’s no insult to be called

    a bad mom.

    July 27, 2025
    folklore, grief, mental health, motherhood, mythology, punk, storytelling

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    Bad Gods

    (Bad Gods being all associated short stories + their artwork)

    Hymn of Hunger

    .

    Ain’t strung up excusin’ your sins

    Last nail in a coffin

    Stood tall enough to stand apart

    His murder broke Her heart

    .

    A woman be strong in her home

    Blood of blood servin’ none

    Suck on hagstones ask “Where is God?”

    His murder broke Her heart

    .

    She went the way of the brown bear

    The last gray wolfwalker

    Without her King Arthur he’s not

    His murder broke Her heart

    .

    Belly an’ bed an’ crib empty

    What insult men conceive

    Built tomb after tomb for their thought

    His murder broke Her heart

    .

    This curse is a tired refrain

    Fallen prey again an’ again

    .

    You suffer your women hobbled

    Weak as a stockade field

    You suffer your forest cut down

    Rot mouth on cross or crown

    July 24, 2025
    gothic romance, lyrics, music, Sci Fi, The Old Ways, world building

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    Just one thing

    Little Screens

    Your mama told me

    how you sat straight up

    mid-REM just to say

    I was part of your family,

    not a passer-by, a minor thing.

    Shuffled into the kitchen at three,

    “Did you know,

    I knew you when I was a baby?”

    Errands, gossip, and groceries,

    we had to save you a seat,

    quietly buried, just listening

    to us speak.

    Asked your mama how to make

    my favorite cake for my birthday—

    the first boy

    to be so thoughtful until then

    and the only to this day.

    If I ate dark chocolate and black coffee,

    by god you’d eat it too. Left your locks wavy,

    let them grow out, ’cause I told your mama

    hers were beautiful every chance I got.

    Donned a giant sleep shirt ’cause the rest of us

    were in the kitchen full grandma.

    Once, you were naughty

    and I was cross. Only a handful

    of tempered words. Not loud.

    Not vulgar.

    You disappeared.

    We sensed the loss

    in volume. Your sister said

    you’d gone to bed

    at six o’ clock.

    Not my little night owl.

    Did you know,

    she’s the one who found you

    this last time.

    In Loving Memory of my nephew, 2012 – 2025

    July 18, 2025
    family, grief, love, mental health

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    Special Request: To the Tune of Work Song by Hozier

    [verse 1]

    Steel shovel all bones numb

    Ten hours on a swollen limb

    Picture some kinda better man

    An undertakin’s got me warm again

    Oh best kinda mess is my man

    If God’s fist make right then we live in sin

    Slammin’ doors only thanks He’ll get

    Got lips on every bruise for droppin’ him

    [chorus]

    Well your time’s come around

    A mother’s hands always knew your worth

    Hush now, boy I’ll lay you down

    Tell me where it hurts

    [verse 2]

    Girls, if he ever found me

    Had sense enough just to take my hand

    I’d more than empty shelves around me

    Have Maid Marian to my thievin’ ass

    And in the brightest dead of winter

    ‘Tween my selkie thighs it’s not so bad

    We can savor every shiver

    Whatever demon rocks him always got his back

    [chorus]

    Well your time’s come around

    A mother’s hands always knew your worth

    Hush now, boy I’ll lay you down

    Tell me where it hurts

    Well your time’s come around

    A mother’s hands always knew your worth

    Hush now, boy I’ll lay you down

    Tell me where it hurts

    [verse 3]

    My man would never let go

    Kept pace his mama’s pulse when he left home

    If gods seen fit to bless me

    These arms don’t tire so long as his to hold me

    Hits different when I call him baby

    No Father could make wings like these

    Sing snow angel in my bed sheets

    Such a man but a dream to me

    [chorus]

    Well your time’s come around

    A mother’s hands always knew your worth

    Hush now, boy I’ll lay you down

    Tell me where it hurts

    Well your time’s come around

    A mother’s hands always knew your worth

    Hush now, boy I’ll lay you down

    Tell me where it hurts

    @~^~

    Notes: Birthday challenge. I actually hadn’t heard of this artist until last night (earlier tonight?), so this is me bouncing off two songs, like three fun facts, vibes and instinct. Bit of a mouthful but I’m pretty sure I played this right.

    July 11, 2025
    Hozier, humor, lyrics, music, pop culture

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    Aisling Óengus

    His name means Chosen One,

    borne in a day, forever young,

    born the last of Dagda’s sons,

    inheritance none.

    With winged kisses and lovely song,

    wit and wile, he played at love.

    Tricked his father, a castle won,

    a day and night known by Boann.

    Swords and spears a purpose

    above,

    given to quests against all odds.

    Everything that he could want.

    It wasn’t enough.

    A dream upon him in the night,

    was it golden hands or many voiced,

    tension on those strings just right,

    just right.

    Was it something in her eyes?

    Saw her but couldn’t remember.

    The most beautiful woman

    he’d ever seen in his life.

    Nowhere to be seen in the daytime.

    Unattainable. He wasted away.

    Narrowed his focus, a singular

    point.

    Only one thing

    would bring him joy.

    Would know her kiss

    if it hid her bite.

    He took no pleasure

    in being alive.

    His mother tried

    to put it right, sickness

    mundane, family divined.

    Love in absence,

    antidote hopeless,

    without even a name

    to go on.

    They set out to find

    this woman of strange

    description.

    Oh that took some time.

    Some secret identity.

    An ultimate mystery.

    Who was she?

    Finally,

    a stricken cord.

    Shapely Yew Berry,

    many shapes indeed, fruit

    of the deadliest tree. Death

    Herself, you see. Caer

    denotes a resting place,

    an abode of stories and dreams,

    she the master of these.

    Ibormeith rhymes roughly

    with river-faith. Anyway,

    she dwelled beside a cursed lake,

    a dragon’s mouth they say, banished

    beneath a serpent. Story

    for another day.

    A swan upon its waters,

    somersaulting Samhains,

    bearer of All Souls.

    Aengus flew to her at once.

    Asked the blessing of her father,

    but hers were the Old Ways.

    This king had no say.

    If he be worthy of her heart,

    to that far shore he must depart,

    and call to her by name.

    Thrice fifty swans the same.

    This flock of many beauties,

    and he despaired his mate.

    Only love survives the grave.

    Aengus closed his eyes.

    All those nights a journey made,

    had to crawl to know her shape,

    desolate and desperate.

    Dreams aren’t fun and games.

    Caer Ibormeith.

    A woman once again,

    looked upon her chosen man

    and said where have you been?

    Lover when I called you,

    I didn’t stutter.

    Gray hairs given your mother.

    All turned about some other,

    recollection muddled.

    How noisy the waking world.

    Aengus was here now though,

    hand out,

    if she would take it.

    Wore the feathers she made him.

    Thrice about that lake they swam,

    song of such beauty

    an entire kingdom slept.

    A kingdom beyond is where they went.

    That Ever After?

    It’s the end.

    June 30, 2025
    Celtic, Death, Irish folklore, love, music, poetry, storytelling, The Old Ways

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    Golden Fleece 1/X: assorted retellings and embellishments

    Honor Killing

    Once was a samurai,

    a lord among men. Won

    divine armor, the most skilled

    among them. His highest achievement

    yet.

    Helmet Invulnerable, Breastplate Impenetrable,

    Sword Unbreakable. Fields

    of fallen warriors. What

    was it all for?

    The Moon King

    named him a threat.

    Ordered this Hanzo’s death.

    One foe ahead of the rest, brightest

    star of heaven, so very strong

    of magic. Fiercest opponent

    he’d ever met. Lost in her eyes, said,

    “You are my quest.”

    They took to bed.

    Would make a people

    in her image.

    But her family mourned her perfection,

    pure power without warmth of companion,

    and a fallen daughter

    they wouldn’t forgive.

    The Song We Couldn’t Write

    Oh how the world

    finds a way to make shame

    a woman’s business. The Three

    must defeat it, comes down to demons

    and who makes them. The power

    of song

    and these knives they found.

    Duty and perfection expound,

    got a problem? Keep that shit

    to yourself. But this time around,

    our main girl needs help.

    Her cords skip out,

    fumbles at the finish line,

    and the fairest demon boy

    finds her just in time.

    Clocks her stripes in the middle

    of a fight. Her fractures.

    His own the mirror of hers.

    From her teammates he covers,

    and something like romance ensues.

    Turns out her mama loved a demon too.

    She didn’t choose

    her patterns, did no wrong

    but be born. The care

    of a woman whose tenderness

    was scorn in disguise.

    Her real mother died.

    How is a mystery.

    Reverberate,

    did mommy love me?

    Through his loneliness she sees

    the man he was in life.

    Offers a place close

    at her side. She’s immune

    to the Demon King’s voice.

    Hope comes down to choice.

    For a moment

    he believes he can rise.

    But that Demon King reminds.

    His Voice. And his choices.

    He didn’t confide them, that version

    unsightly. How precious to think

    his dream

    could yet come true. Hope

    is unbecoming of you.

    Our girl

    hits the bottom,

    a well of betrayal. Abandoned

    by all she’s known.

    And so

    there’s one way left to go.

    Breaks that barrier herself,

    it all comes out.

    Different kinda mouth to mouth.

    He’s a terrible wall of fire

    and she’s ready to be Loud.

    Allows her whole self to be seen,

    she squares up with the Demon King.

    Her former team rejoin as she sings,

    but there’s just too many. Face to face,

    stripes turned to light, just a demon girl

    and her trusty blade.

    He finds her just in time.

    Eternity between their eyes.

    Heroes they’re not,

    but this once, for sake of song,

    and for love, he’ll be her sacrifice.

    Consumed by flames.

    Amplifies that gleaming blade,

    turns the tide of battle, and gives

    the strength to strike

    a death blow.

    Evig Hus

    A woman

    vibrant and warm

    decided it time to settle down

    so set about building her house.

    No detail too small, broke ground,

    pored every wall, every fixture,

    window to shadow,

    all that was in her.

    They never met though.

    Drown at sea in a storm,

    the house woke only to mourn,

    couldn’t make sense of his form.

    Inorganic. He was never alive.

    Where do you put it,

    love that can’t die?

    He drove them away,

    shut everyone out. This

    was a one woman house.

    No other would do. Mischief,

    skullduggery ensued. Very rude.

    He thought he found Her,

    warped by his grief, clutched

    tight a firebird so great his need

    smothered. Stuck

    in his mirror dimension, willed

    they would be one.

    Her friends struggled, efforts all burned.

    But for one.

    It took some time, unsure

    she would come.

    Darkness wrought

    in Her name, damage

    undone.

    Bloated and limping, mangled,

    things growing

    from the bottom of the sea,

    shambled from her peace.

    No beauty she.

    He knew immediately.

    She was all he could see.

    Relinquished his host

    right in her arms, free

    to go home. Both.

    Origin media and relevant tracks: Kubo and the Two Strings, “Monkey’s Story” by Dario Marianelli and “While My Guitar Gently Weeps” by Regina Spektor; KPop Demon Hunters, “Free” by Rumi and “What It Sounds Like” by HUNTR/X; SurrealEstate S2 finale, “Luke & Megan” and “A Day of Goodbyes” by Spencer Creaghan.

    June 26, 2025
    fantasy, music, poetry, pop culture, storytelling, supernatural

    • About
    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    Polaris

    Reporting for Duty

    When you’re of a certain heritage

    and demographic, those signs

    you be havin’ is called

    shamans in the bloodline.

    Canary in a coal mine.

    Girls especially can’t confide

    or show weakness. Not in this place.

    Fix your face. Watch your tone.

    Grandpa drove heavy freight through war zones,

    when I told daddy ’bout my visitor, behold,

    it was him as a young man in uniform, said

    he’d be with me until

    I didn’t need him anymore.

    Marching Orders

    If you didn’t catch heat

    for refusin’ the pledge of allegiance,

    you don’t know America. One nation

    under God, hand over heart.

    Even worse, your school’s a church.

    What to expect when you’re dirt poor.

    Only one way you’ll ever afford

    college or a doctor.

    Become a butcher

    or your future’s a slumlord’s trailer.

    Is it any wonder,

    thumb that yearbook,

    pregnant, pregnant, dead, and shot

    by his own father. Our class clown.

    Caps when we say Made it Out.

    Walk a wakin’ ghost town,

    every season is just pale brown,

    differentiate the sound

    of gunshots, fireworks, and sonic booms.

    School colors are red, white, and blue.

    Don’t forget,

    you gotta genuflect, show respect,

    I won’t say “thank you for your service,”

    you have my condolences.

    Formation

    What’s a girl to do?

    Shoutin’ rhymes can be singin’ too.

    Nothin’ else new, top of the class

    in boot camp, disciplined youth.

    Can’t even call it waste, no taste

    for what remained: meth teeth,

    heroin chic, or fancy cocaine.

    I’d rather have steak. Sushi.

    Ice cream. Fuck it,

    all three. Anyway, they made

    us draw our lives as rivers

    and streams. Me bein’ me

    said piss off,

    I’m drawin’ a massive tree.

    Real Time Strategy

    They arrested a local woman

    for feedin’ the homeless

    in public, out in the open.

    Called it bad optics,

    didn’t wanna sour the Californians,

    salivatin’ over their tax dollars,

    gods know we ain’t got none.

    Lion’s share goes to law enforcement,

    who needs shelters or coolin’ centers

    when our finest need paramilitary gear?

    To be fair, sometimes they bust a pedophile—

    oh wait, that’s the FBI. Whatever,

    go ninety miles an hour, that’ll make us safer.

    Pop strugglin’ people hundreds or more

    for squeakin’ by on yellow. Catch’um

    some criminals.

    Our educated betters clutchin’ pearls

    when their situation gets slightly worse,

    remind everyone to vote. Be civil.

    Such civility. Heat deaths every day. Classic,

    stars ‘n’ bars on every street. Chapels on every corner,

    help for your addiction, your sickness, oh but

    keep those babies comin’,

    everybody’s gotta do their part.

    Compartmentalization

    Adverse conditions. Distress or talent

    merit no response. Not a glance. Ain’t gotta tell you

    what that does to a developin’ mind.

    They just watch TV, no Ctrl + Alt + Delete,

    no heart of gold comin’ to save me. Disappear

    if you can’t leave. Start fires

    because they’re pretty.

    Every friend I ever made

    looked icy, awkward, or dead in the face,

    showed love a different kinda way,

    struggled to say or make plain.

    Flames erupt once they feel safe,

    there’s no better place without room to break,

    I’ve never been afraid

    of change. So what we’re never the same

    again? I said what I meant. No regrets.

    This pasture or the next,

    I’m on the freaks like cows

    on salt licks.

    Six Wheel Drive

    I will say this:

    The Brave Little Toaster fucked me up big.

    Abandoned appliances wonderin’

    where their boys went.

    Toaster sacrifices himself

    to save his friends from the trash compactor.

    That’s OG horror. Works out in the end.

    But for me it didn’t. An audience

    unintended. That said,

    I picture a GMC CCKW

    ’cause that’s my roots. Pull up in a two

    and a half ton, friend shaped

    steel monstrosity. Next best to a train.

    It’s not fuel efficient, fuel deficient,

    been nursin’ what I love miles gone,

    but this is my last stop. I’ll pick you up,

    strap your spooky ass and all else

    to the hull of this, my morbid

    gorgeous hood ornament, put the rest

    beneath the axles. Long haul

    through hell, gotta have guns

    to keep hold this steerin’ wheel,

    I’ll get us out. Home

    is wherever I hang my gremlin bell.

    Fall in Line

    No paternity test necessary,

    she bemoans the curse

    of hot blooded men in our family,

    spare you the gory deets,

    that surname banks on the Ing.

    Expect two things:

    they fuck and they sing.

    Sadly it don’t seem

    the gods made more’n one of me,

    didn’t throw an Aengus

    to my Caer Ibormeith,

    and that’s a lonely place to be.

    Times are tough out here on Lake Mead,

    ain’t squat for a mean ol’ swan to eat,

    he’s like a little boy fightin’ sleep,

    forgets what language he speak,

    misfires at the ceilin’ and gets a migraine,

    I suppose it’s flattery,

    with his eyes askin’ please,

    every last drop or every last breath beseech,

    cradled in palm or knife in his breast.

    No satisfaction, miss

    me with that mess:

    these girls lettin’ pups

    use their bodies like toilets.

    Nothin’ less

    than unconditional surrender

    is an acceptable mode of address.

    If he can’t ride,

    can’t know me or touch me

    the way I like,

    then the best thing a man can do

    is die.

    May 31, 2025
    life, mental health, mythology, punk, recovery, relationships, storytelling

    • About
    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    School of Isis

    Footnotes

    She found him in a wreck

    or was it washed up on rocks?

    Nobody of nowhere, naught

    but to be hers. What tempests

    deliver, chances. No stranger

    to risk, this chieftain of ships.

    Happiness from a far flung place,

    held fast in the face of other plans.

    Slain by a lesser contemporary—

    not even her nation’s mortal enemy—

    and women, we don’t owe anything

    to anybody.

    She marked her tragedy

    with several bodies. History

    records these. The ocean

    plays for keeps.

    She held plural, actually,

    I think you know of whom I speak.

    Two husbands and seven children down,

    the toll on a woman not afforded a crown.

    The longer you live the muddier your choices,

    perhaps made simpler because she lost him.

    No Kings, No Masters

    Always the best lines

    for villains. Mind

    who’s doin’ the writin’.

    This witch said love

    is what they give girls

    to play with

    instead of power. Admit,

    she’s not wrong though.

    Thing is, we’re the source

    of both. What we’re owed.

    No one sits upon that throne,

    because a woman’s work is never done.

    Our seat is empty but not open,

    least of all for an ungrateful son.

    Nothin’ good comes

    forgettin’ where you came from.

    Whose bed you warm.

    This notion of The One

    necessitates equal ground,

    and that’s tricky.

    Any creature of complexity or

    eccentricity begs a particular

    shape of mate. Honesty.

    Faith in an endgame

    worth the wait.

    For whom you need not

    translate.

    Ubuntu means

    I cannot be human

    until you reflect my humanity

    back at me.

    If you met the Goddess today,

    what would she see?

    Conquerable Characters

    There’s four pillars to a good time:

    food, fightin’, fuckin’, and friendship.

    Foundation of every house ever built.

    Don’t matter how you dress it up.

    I wanna hunt and kill the kobold horde,

    then I wanna woo the forlorn lord,

    he’s a widower. Kobolds, remember.

    Come here baby, I’ll make it better.

    Then I’m gonna go to the tavern

    and make a bunch of friends there,

    or knuckles up again,

    the night is young.

    I’ll go home, arms full

    with whatever’s good I’ve found

    and he’s still in his study

    with a wrinkled shirt and that

    little frown.

    Forgets to eat if I’m not around.

    I know what to do with that mouth.

    Here’s where most people say,

    I’m just too manly, how

    could any of these poor boys compete,

    as if it ain’t law you don’t ask for a softie

    unless you give Grace O’Malley.

    Unseen

    The female of a species

    hides in plain sight.

    She is much, much bigger

    on the inside.

    You wouldn’t realize.

    Density is the very mechanism

    of Time. What breaks you

    is what allows you a life.

    Preachin’ immortality

    is an unforgivable slight.

    A galaxy’s choreography,

    every orchestra chair in its symphony,

    spins the whims of a singularity

    only visible via debris.

    My high notes nurse nebulous,

    my low notes swing on Tartarus,

    talkin’ is tirin’ when you’re all chest,

    surrounded by flutter, twitter, and soar,

    and I stab at those like…

    lipstick on an alligator.

    Defyin’ drought one swamp paw

    after the other, a solitary reservoir

    of words.

    Event Horizon

    Grit jammed my playlist

    for twenty years.

    If it was too soft, slow, or folksy

    it sailed past these ears.

    This heart needed tempo

    to keep me alive.

    A birth defect internalized.

    You march on the stomach,

    won’t fill it with sad—

    well, a workin’ class woman in hell can’t—

    fuck it up with a bassline, drop

    real low, hit me

    with a death growl. Spill

    siren song over shrapnel.

    Tectonic technical.

    Maybe someday somethin’

    sweet enough to put this knife down.

    A lullaby long and sensual.

    The best sleep I’ve ever known

    was a piece by my estranged brother,

    eyes closed in a palette of embers.

    Defrag

    When you’re a ghost in the walls

    linin’ the chambers of others’

    TV lobotomies

    you hear things.

    Happen past your reflection and think,

    oh that’s my body

    in a warped door frame. Who is she?

    Been clutchin’ a telephone string

    all these nights askin’ why, why,

    hopin’ for someone at the end of the line,

    and maybe they’ve tied theirs up in knots,

    but I’ve a firm grasp on mine.

    I can’t relate to any of ’em,

    their clumsy digits like toddlers

    on a xylophone. I parse data,

    finest fleece from a sea of wrong sounds,

    in the weavin’ I become. A spider

    doesn’t think herself an architect.

    She is the web.

    So it holds,

    however she is, is how she’s meant,

    and if she suffers her story to be told,

    then someone must need to hear it.

    X

    Liftin’ a curse

    ain’t just about lockin’ lips.

    It’s how we got here, hurt

    informs medicine. Receptive

    roots must recognize

    my breath.

    An invitation,

    the invocation of The Kiss.

    What power it has

    is the power you give. Magic

    is the space between belief

    and what exists. The artist

    whose gaze you see yourself in.

    A temporal flash at the end,

    I pull this thread in my hand,

    inverse unravelin’

    until there’s a direct line

    from you to me.

    Suddenly

    you can look back

    at all the places pain

    shaped you and find

    my love instead.

    May 26, 2025
    history, mental health, mythology, philosophy, storytelling

    • About
    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    Life Support

    Tiamat

    Somewhere out in Georgia

    they’ve strung a woman’s

    desecrated corpse up

    to incubate a failed

    pile of flesh and blood.

    Sit

    the fuck down

    and call it what it is.

    Try

    ego trip meets cowardice.

    These men won’t do right

    without a gun to their heads.

    The oldest, oldest sin

    is matricide. Didn’t just die,

    it was malicious negligence.

    Remember this, we’re just parts

    in a pretty dress. Disposable, yet

    the mother’s mind regulates growth

    hormones, the brain and nervous system—

    a universe intelligent. If she’s not home,

    if she’s oppressed, there’s only so long

    they can sell the crown of God’s intent.

    Clinging to the prefrontal cortex, high

    on pathetic hubris. You emerge

    from the great dreaming

    of your mother’s subconscious

    as surely as every drop of life

    emerged from the sea.

    Positive Reinforcement

    Call me a gorgon,

    the way I make a man

    shit his pants just lookin’ at him.

    I’m never what they’re expectin’,

    one sentence followed by consequences.

    I’ll show you punctuation.

    Ain’t worth my articulation

    if he don’t listen.

    I’m warm as I am calm,

    no taste for a fuss,

    if I’ve gone cold means I’ve had enough.

    Learned from the best, the first

    of my name froze hers on the porch,

    an abusive drunk stone dead at her door—

    call that Choctaw divorce.

    Divine Feminine

    Not to sound like a dragon,

    oh but there’s somethin’ to be said

    about all your pets and an affectionate man

    asleep in your bed.

    Keepin’ all your pleasures in one place,

    just you and your favorite mug

    thinkin’ on what you’ll do

    when he wakes.

    The perks

    of him workin’ late.

    Early to rise is me,

    got plants to tend and chickens to feed,

    a woman needs

    room to breathe

    radiant volume and dust mote sunbeams,

    barefoot in a dark nightdress

    treadin’ the shoreline

    of the deep.

    Send ’em off, from depths receive,

    first and last is where we meet,

    no bolt hole so murky

    as beyond my reach.

    Run lover, fast as you please,

    I’m gonna get you.

    Breathe.

    Yew Berry

    The final gift of dreams

    is lucidity.

    No matter what, how far, how many,

    who or where.

    Mine is the crown of Nightmares.

    Tamer to the jump scares, dread

    is for the unawares. I become myself.

    Whatever’s legs can be a horse.

    Can handle those.

    These here were broken once, both.

    Let it hurt.

    Clawed fingers, drag your body

    through the dirt. If you can’t,

    if you can’t be human, good.

    Just as well, might

    as well be all

    over now, safe at least if not

    strictly speakin’ sound. Come out

    from under those covers, tell me

    what you’ve learned.

    Set Design

    Gorgeous if you’ve gotta count rice,

    throw rhymes or do a dance,

    who cares

    how you get from here to there?

    Got that Van Helsing Rube Goldberg kinda weird.

    I won’t stake your fretted heart,

    nor sever your pretty head—

    all this nonsense ’bout the undead—

    for the record:

    spooks can’t cross runnin’ water

    without their Magna Mater—

    the very soil they sprang from—

    ain’t fuck shit to do with the church. The point

    of silver: it’s a superior heat conductor, star

    studded channel for electricity. Catches charge,

    the magic happens when I throw sparks.

    Sometimes you defibrillate sickness in a herd.

    An ancient covenant between Mothers,

    the strongest of mine for the best of yours,

    spare no sacrifice for a daughter

    of the blood, a man ain’t never been

    the savior of a land.

    Weaker Sex

    Women need twice as much meat,

    and thrice while pregnant. Pigs

    can have that salad. More iron

    than men can do with. Their guts

    are inefficient. We risk

    our lives to wait, the last possible second,

    because they don’t have what it takes:

    over 50,000 calories and pure marrow DNA

    to build a human brain. Actin’ like

    whoopsie daisy there’s a baby,

    we’re right handed as a species,

    premature on the titty, because the left

    holds you to our heartbeat while we

    forge society. Fat heads.

    If a man fell pregnant

    here’s what happens:

    he don’t make it three months

    before multiple organ collapse—

    if his fried limbic system don’t drive him

    carbon monoxide mad first.

    His tissues shred apart like pot roast,

    him or the babe starve,

    just a fetid slump of gore. There is no

    miracle of birth, no Father’s hand

    in a woman’s work.

    Zoonotic Approach

    There was an old jaguar

    up in Alaska, rescued rough,

    but that’s just 250 pounds of cat

    to love. They gave him the biggest box

    of straw, a whole shippin’ container,

    and some fun tree stumps.

    He was gettin’ on, long in the tooth,

    but his handler still sensed the flame

    of his youth. Capacity for joy.

    This was her boy. Always.

    A multinational team

    assembled to draw his own blood

    and spin fresh bone jelly to be

    injected straight into his calcified

    joints. The first operation of its kind.

    Predators are hard to keep under,

    the slightest mistake and he’d die.

    A room full of doctors takin’ cues from the handler

    because this was her boy.

    She never left his side.

    Eyes on his face and hands on his chest,

    knew if he hurt from barest of breaths.

    A lost jungle king of two interventions,

    able to jump, climb, and play again

    because one woman spoke for him.

    May 22, 2025
    environment, gothic, love, mental health, motherhood

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