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    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
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    Aisling Óengus

    His name means Chosen One,

    borne in a day, forever young,

    born the last of Dagda’s sons,

    inheritance none.

    With winged kisses and lovely song,

    wit and wile, he played at love.

    Tricked his father, a castle won,

    a day and night known by Boann.

    Swords and spears a purpose

    above,

    given to quests against all odds.

    Everything that he could want.

    It wasn’t enough.

    A dream upon him in the night,

    was it golden hands or many voiced,

    tension on those strings just right,

    just right.

    Was it something in her eyes?

    Saw her but couldn’t remember.

    The most beautiful woman

    he’d ever seen in his life.

    Nowhere to be seen in the daytime.

    Unattainable. He wasted away.

    Narrowed his focus, a singular

    point.

    Only one thing

    would bring him joy.

    Would know her kiss

    if it hid her bite.

    He took no pleasure

    in being alive.

    His mother tried

    to put it right, sickness

    mundane, family divined.

    Love in absence,

    antidote hopeless,

    without even a name

    to go on.

    They set out to find

    this woman of strange

    description.

    Oh that took some time.

    Some secret identity.

    An ultimate mystery.

    Who was she?

    Finally,

    a stricken cord.

    Shapely Yew Berry,

    many shapes indeed, fruit

    of the deadliest tree. Death

    Herself, you see. Caer

    denotes a resting place,

    an abode of stories and dreams,

    she the master of these.

    Ibormeith rhymes roughly

    with river-faith. Anyway,

    she dwelled beside a cursed lake,

    a dragon’s mouth they say, banished

    beneath a serpent. Story

    for another day.

    A swan upon its waters,

    somersaulting Samhains,

    bearer of All Souls.

    Aengus flew to her at once.

    Asked the blessing of her father,

    but hers were the Old Ways.

    This king had no say.

    If he be worthy of her heart,

    to that far shore he must depart,

    and call to her by name.

    Thrice fifty swans the same.

    This flock of many beauties,

    and he despaired his mate.

    Only love survives the grave.

    Aengus closed his eyes.

    All those nights a journey made,

    had to crawl to know her shape,

    desolate and desperate.

    Dreams aren’t fun and games.

    Caer Ibormeith.

    A woman once again,

    looked upon her chosen man

    and said where have you been?

    Lover when I called you,

    I didn’t stutter.

    Gray hairs given your mother.

    All turned about some other,

    recollection muddled.

    How noisy the waking world.

    Aengus was here now though,

    hand out,

    if she would take it.

    Wore the feathers she made him.

    Thrice about that lake they swam,

    song of such beauty

    an entire kingdom slept.

    A kingdom beyond is where they went.

    That Ever After?

    It’s the end.

    June 30, 2025
    Celtic, Death, Irish folklore, love, music, poetry, storytelling, The Old Ways

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    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    Golden Fleece 1/X: assorted retellings and embellishments

    Honor Killing

    Once was a samurai,

    a lord among men. Won

    divine armor, the most skilled

    among them. His highest achievement

    yet.

    Helmet Invulnerable, Breastplate Impenetrable,

    Sword Unbreakable. Fields

    of fallen warriors. What

    was it all for?

    The Moon King

    named him a threat.

    Ordered this Hanzo’s death.

    One foe ahead of the rest, brightest

    star of heaven, so very strong

    of magic. Fiercest opponent

    he’d ever met. Lost in her eyes, said,

    “You are my quest.”

    They took to bed.

    Would make a people

    in her image.

    But her family mourned her perfection,

    pure power without warmth of companion,

    and a fallen daughter

    they wouldn’t forgive.

    The Song We Couldn’t Write

    Oh how the world

    finds a way to make shame

    a woman’s business. The Three

    must defeat it, comes down to demons

    and who makes them. The power

    of song

    and these knives they found.

    Duty and perfection expound,

    got a problem? Keep that shit

    to yourself. But this time around,

    our main girl needs help.

    Her cords skip out,

    fumbles at the finish line,

    and the fairest demon boy

    finds her just in time.

    Clocks her stripes in the middle

    of a fight. Her fractures.

    His own the mirror of hers.

    From her teammates he covers,

    and something like romance ensues.

    Turns out her mama loved a demon too.

    She didn’t choose

    her patterns, did no wrong

    but be born. The care

    of a woman whose tenderness

    was scorn in disguise.

    Her real mother died.

    How is a mystery.

    Reverberate,

    did mommy love me?

    Through his loneliness she sees

    the man he was in life.

    Offers a place close

    at her side. She’s immune

    to the Demon King’s voice.

    Hope comes down to choice.

    For a moment

    he believes he can rise.

    But that Demon King reminds.

    His Voice. And his choices.

    He didn’t confide them, that version

    unsightly. How precious to think

    his dream

    could yet come true. Hope

    is unbecoming of you.

    Our girl

    hits the bottom,

    a well of betrayal. Abandoned

    by all she’s known.

    And so

    there’s one way left to go.

    Breaks that barrier herself,

    it all comes out.

    Different kinda mouth to mouth.

    He’s a terrible wall of fire

    and she’s ready to be Loud.

    Allows her whole self to be seen,

    she squares up with the Demon King.

    Her former team rejoin as she sings,

    but there’s just too many. Face to face,

    stripes turned to light, just a demon girl

    and her trusty blade.

    He finds her just in time.

    Eternity between their eyes.

    Heroes they’re not,

    but this once, for sake of song,

    and for love, he’ll be her sacrifice.

    Consumed by flames.

    Amplifies that gleaming blade,

    turns the tide of battle, and gives

    the strength to strike

    a death blow.

    Evig Hus

    A woman

    vibrant and warm

    decided it time to settle down

    so set about building her house.

    No detail too small, broke ground,

    pored every wall, every fixture,

    window to shadow,

    all that was in her.

    They never met though.

    Drown at sea in a storm,

    the house woke only to mourn,

    couldn’t make sense of his form.

    Inorganic. He was never alive.

    Where do you put it,

    love that can’t die?

    He drove them away,

    shut everyone out. This

    was a one woman house.

    No other would do. Mischief,

    skullduggery ensued. Very rude.

    He thought he found Her,

    warped by his grief, clutched

    tight a firebird so great his need

    smothered. Stuck

    in his mirror dimension, willed

    they would be one.

    Her friends struggled, efforts all burned.

    But for one.

    It took some time, unsure

    she would come.

    Darkness wrought

    in Her name, damage

    undone.

    Bloated and limping, mangled,

    things growing

    from the bottom of the sea,

    shambled from her peace.

    No beauty she.

    He knew immediately.

    She was all he could see.

    Relinquished his host

    right in her arms, free

    to go home. Both.

    Origin media and relevant tracks: Kubo and the Two Strings, “Monkey’s Story” by Dario Marianelli and “While My Guitar Gently Weeps” by Regina Spektor; KPop Demon Hunters, “Free” by Rumi and “What It Sounds Like” by HUNTR/X; SurrealEstate S2 finale, “Luke & Megan” and “A Day of Goodbyes” by Spencer Creaghan.

    June 26, 2025
    fantasy, music, poetry, pop culture, storytelling, supernatural

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    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    Polaris

    Reporting for Duty

    When you’re of a certain heritage

    and demographic, those signs

    you be havin’ is called

    shamans in the bloodline.

    Canary in a coal mine.

    Girls especially can’t confide

    or show weakness. Not in this place.

    Fix your face. Watch your tone.

    Grandpa drove heavy freight through war zones,

    when I told daddy ’bout my visitor, behold,

    it was him as a young man in uniform, said

    he’d be with me until

    I didn’t need him anymore.

    Marching Orders

    If you didn’t catch heat

    for refusin’ the pledge of allegiance,

    you don’t know America. One nation

    under God, hand over heart.

    Even worse, your school’s a church.

    What to expect when you’re dirt poor.

    Only one way you’ll ever afford

    college or a doctor.

    Become a butcher

    or your future’s a slumlord’s trailer.

    Is it any wonder,

    thumb that yearbook,

    pregnant, pregnant, dead, and shot

    by his own father. Our class clown.

    Caps when we say Made it Out.

    Walk a wakin’ ghost town,

    every season is just pale brown,

    differentiate the sound

    of gunshots, fireworks, and sonic booms.

    School colors are red, white, and blue.

    Don’t forget,

    you gotta genuflect, show respect,

    I won’t say “thank you for your service,”

    you have my condolences.

    Formation

    What’s a girl to do?

    Shoutin’ rhymes can be singin’ too.

    Nothin’ else new, top of the class

    in boot camp, disciplined youth.

    Can’t even call it waste, no taste

    for what remained: meth teeth,

    heroin chic, or fancy cocaine.

    I’d rather have steak. Sushi.

    Ice cream. Fuck it,

    all three. Anyway, they made

    us draw our lives as rivers

    and streams. Me bein’ me

    said piss off,

    I’m drawin’ a massive tree.

    Real Time Strategy

    They arrested a local woman

    for feedin’ the homeless

    in public, out in the open.

    Called it bad optics,

    didn’t wanna sour the Californians,

    salivatin’ over their tax dollars,

    gods know we ain’t got none.

    Lion’s share goes to law enforcement,

    who needs shelters or coolin’ centers

    when our finest need paramilitary gear?

    To be fair, sometimes they bust a pedophile—

    oh wait, that’s the FBI. Whatever,

    go ninety miles an hour, that’ll make us safer.

    Pop strugglin’ people hundreds or more

    for squeakin’ by on yellow. Catch’um

    some criminals.

    Our educated betters clutchin’ pearls

    when their situation gets slightly worse,

    remind everyone to vote. Be civil.

    Such civility. Heat deaths every day. Classic,

    stars ‘n’ bars on every street. Chapels on every corner,

    help for your addiction, your sickness, oh but

    keep those babies comin’,

    everybody’s gotta do their part.

    Compartmentalization

    Adverse conditions. Distress or talent

    merit no response. Not a glance. Ain’t gotta tell you

    what that does to a developin’ mind.

    They just watch TV, no Ctrl + Alt + Delete,

    no heart of gold comin’ to save me. Disappear

    if you can’t leave. Start fires

    because they’re pretty.

    Every friend I ever made

    looked icy, awkward, or dead in the face,

    showed love a different kinda way,

    struggled to say or make plain.

    Flames erupt once they feel safe,

    there’s no better place without room to break,

    I’ve never been afraid

    of change. So what we’re never the same

    again? I said what I meant. No regrets.

    This pasture or the next,

    I’m on the freaks like cows

    on salt licks.

    Six Wheel Drive

    I will say this:

    The Brave Little Toaster fucked me up big.

    Abandoned appliances wonderin’

    where their boys went.

    Toaster sacrifices himself

    to save his friends from the trash compactor.

    That’s OG horror. Works out in the end.

    But for me it didn’t. An audience

    unintended. That said,

    I picture a GMC CCKW

    ’cause that’s my roots. Pull up in a two

    and a half ton, friend shaped

    steel monstrosity. Next best to a train.

    It’s not fuel efficient, fuel deficient,

    been nursin’ what I love miles gone,

    but this is my last stop. I’ll pick you up,

    strap your spooky ass and all else

    to the hull of this, my morbid

    gorgeous hood ornament, put the rest

    beneath the axles. Long haul

    through hell, gotta have guns

    to keep hold this steerin’ wheel,

    I’ll get us out. Home

    is wherever I hang my gremlin bell.

    Fall in Line

    No paternity test necessary,

    she bemoans the curse

    of hot blooded men in our family,

    spare you the gory deets,

    that surname banks on the Ing.

    Expect two things:

    they fuck and they sing.

    Sadly it don’t seem

    the gods made more’n one of me,

    didn’t throw an Aengus

    to my Caer Ibormeith,

    and that’s a lonely place to be.

    Times are tough out here on Lake Mead,

    ain’t squat for a mean ol’ swan to eat,

    he’s like a little boy fightin’ sleep,

    forgets what language he speak,

    misfires at the ceilin’ and gets a migraine,

    I suppose it’s flattery,

    with his eyes askin’ please,

    every last drop or every last breath beseech,

    cradled in palm or knife in his breast.

    No satisfaction, miss

    me with that mess:

    these girls lettin’ pups

    use their bodies like toilets.

    Nothin’ less

    than unconditional surrender

    is an acceptable mode of address.

    If he can’t ride,

    can’t know me or touch me

    the way I like,

    then the best thing a man can do

    is die.

    May 31, 2025
    life, mental health, mythology, punk, recovery, relationships, storytelling

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    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    School of Isis

    Footnotes

    She found him in a wreck

    or was it washed up on rocks?

    Nobody of nowhere, naught

    but to be hers. What tempests

    deliver, chances. No stranger

    to risk, this chieftain of ships.

    Happiness from a far flung place,

    held fast in the face of other plans.

    Slain by a lesser contemporary—

    not even her nation’s mortal enemy—

    and women, we don’t owe anything

    to anybody.

    She marked her tragedy

    with several bodies. History

    records these. The ocean

    plays for keeps.

    She held plural, actually,

    I think you know of whom I speak.

    Two husbands and seven children down,

    the toll on a woman not afforded a crown.

    The longer you live the muddier your choices,

    perhaps made simpler because she lost him.

    No Kings, No Masters

    Always the best lines

    for villains. Mind

    who’s doin’ the writin’.

    This witch said love

    is what they give girls

    to play with

    instead of power. Admit,

    she’s not wrong though.

    Thing is, we’re the source

    of both. What we’re owed.

    No one sits upon that throne,

    because a woman’s work is never done.

    Our seat is empty but not open,

    least of all for an ungrateful son.

    Nothin’ good comes

    forgettin’ where you came from.

    Whose bed you warm.

    This notion of The One

    necessitates equal ground,

    and that’s tricky.

    Any creature of complexity or

    eccentricity begs a particular

    shape of mate. Honesty.

    Faith in an endgame

    worth the wait.

    For whom you need not

    translate.

    Ubuntu means

    I cannot be human

    until you reflect my humanity

    back at me.

    If you met the Goddess today,

    what would she see?

    Conquerable Characters

    There’s four pillars to a good time:

    food, fightin’, fuckin’, and friendship.

    Foundation of every house ever built.

    Don’t matter how you dress it up.

    I wanna hunt and kill the kobold horde,

    then I wanna woo the forlorn lord,

    he’s a widower. Kobolds, remember.

    Come here baby, I’ll make it better.

    Then I’m gonna go to the tavern

    and make a bunch of friends there,

    or knuckles up again,

    the night is young.

    I’ll go home, arms full

    with whatever’s good I’ve found

    and he’s still in his study

    with a wrinkled shirt and that

    little frown.

    Forgets to eat if I’m not around.

    I know what to do with that mouth.

    Here’s where most people say,

    I’m just too manly, how

    could any of these poor boys compete,

    as if it ain’t law you don’t ask for a softie

    unless you give Grace O’Malley.

    Unseen

    The female of a species

    hides in plain sight.

    She is much, much bigger

    on the inside.

    You wouldn’t realize.

    Density is the very mechanism

    of Time. What breaks you

    is what allows you a life.

    Preachin’ immortality

    is an unforgivable slight.

    A galaxy’s choreography,

    every orchestra chair in its symphony,

    spins the whims of a singularity

    only visible via debris.

    My high notes nurse nebulous,

    my low notes swing on Tartarus,

    talkin’ is tirin’ when you’re all chest,

    surrounded by flutter, twitter, and soar,

    and I stab at those like…

    lipstick on an alligator.

    Defyin’ drought one swamp paw

    after the other, a solitary reservoir

    of words.

    Event Horizon

    Grit jammed my playlist

    for twenty years.

    If it was too soft, slow, or folksy

    it sailed past these ears.

    This heart needed tempo

    to keep me alive.

    A birth defect internalized.

    You march on the stomach,

    won’t fill it with sad—

    well, a workin’ class woman in hell can’t—

    fuck it up with a bassline, drop

    real low, hit me

    with a death growl. Spill

    siren song over shrapnel.

    Tectonic technical.

    Maybe someday somethin’

    sweet enough to put this knife down.

    A lullaby long and sensual.

    The best sleep I’ve ever known

    was a piece by my estranged brother,

    eyes closed in a palette of embers.

    Defrag

    When you’re a ghost in the walls

    linin’ the chambers of others’

    TV lobotomies

    you hear things.

    Happen past your reflection and think,

    oh that’s my body

    in a warped door frame. Who is she?

    Been clutchin’ a telephone string

    all these nights askin’ why, why,

    hopin’ for someone at the end of the line,

    and maybe they’ve tied theirs up in knots,

    but I’ve a firm grasp on mine.

    I can’t relate to any of ’em,

    their clumsy digits like toddlers

    on a xylophone. I parse data,

    finest fleece from a sea of wrong sounds,

    in the weavin’ I become. A spider

    doesn’t think herself an architect.

    She is the web.

    So it holds,

    however she is, is how she’s meant,

    and if she suffers her story to be told,

    then someone must need to hear it.

    X

    Liftin’ a curse

    ain’t just about lockin’ lips.

    It’s how we got here, hurt

    informs medicine. Receptive

    roots must recognize

    my breath.

    An invitation,

    the invocation of The Kiss.

    What power it has

    is the power you give. Magic

    is the space between belief

    and what exists. The artist

    whose gaze you see yourself in.

    A temporal flash at the end,

    I pull this thread in my hand,

    inverse unravelin’

    until there’s a direct line

    from you to me.

    Suddenly

    you can look back

    at all the places pain

    shaped you and find

    my love instead.

    May 26, 2025
    history, mental health, mythology, philosophy, storytelling

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    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    Life Support

    Tiamat

    Somewhere out in Georgia

    they’ve strung a woman’s

    desecrated corpse up

    to incubate a failed

    pile of flesh and blood.

    Sit

    the fuck down

    and call it what it is.

    Try

    ego trip meets cowardice.

    These men won’t do right

    without a gun to their heads.

    The oldest, oldest sin

    is matricide. Didn’t just die,

    it was malicious negligence.

    Remember this, we’re just parts

    in a pretty dress. Disposable, yet

    the mother’s mind regulates growth

    hormones, the brain and nervous system—

    a universe intelligent. If she’s not home,

    if she’s oppressed, there’s only so long

    they can sell the crown of God’s intent.

    Clinging to the prefrontal cortex, high

    on pathetic hubris. You emerge

    from the great dreaming

    of your mother’s subconscious

    as surely as every drop of life

    emerged from the sea.

    Positive Reinforcement

    Call me a gorgon,

    the way I make a man

    shit his pants just lookin’ at him.

    I’m never what they’re expectin’,

    one sentence followed by consequences.

    I’ll show you punctuation.

    Ain’t worth my articulation

    if he don’t listen.

    I’m warm as I am calm,

    no taste for a fuss,

    if I’ve gone cold means I’ve had enough.

    Learned from the best, the first

    of my name froze hers on the porch,

    an abusive drunk stone dead at her door—

    call that Choctaw divorce.

    Divine Feminine

    Not to sound like a dragon,

    oh but there’s somethin’ to be said

    about all your pets and an affectionate man

    asleep in your bed.

    Keepin’ all your pleasures in one place,

    just you and your favorite mug

    thinkin’ on what you’ll do

    when he wakes.

    The perks

    of him workin’ late.

    Early to rise is me,

    got plants to tend and chickens to feed,

    a woman needs

    room to breathe

    radiant volume and dust mote sunbeams,

    barefoot in a dark nightdress

    treadin’ the shoreline

    of the deep.

    Send ’em off, from depths receive,

    first and last is where we meet,

    no bolt hole so murky

    as beyond my reach.

    Run lover, fast as you please,

    I’m gonna get you.

    Breathe.

    Yew Berry

    The final gift of dreams

    is lucidity.

    No matter what, how far, how many,

    who or where.

    Mine is the crown of Nightmares.

    Tamer to the jump scares, dread

    is for the unawares. I become myself.

    Whatever’s legs can be a horse.

    Can handle those.

    These here were broken once, both.

    Let it hurt.

    Clawed fingers, drag your body

    through the dirt. If you can’t,

    if you can’t be human, good.

    Just as well, might

    as well be all

    over now, safe at least if not

    strictly speakin’ sound. Come out

    from under those covers, tell me

    what you’ve learned.

    Set Design

    Gorgeous if you’ve gotta count rice,

    throw rhymes or do a dance,

    who cares

    how you get from here to there?

    Got that Van Helsing Rube Goldberg kinda weird.

    I won’t stake your fretted heart,

    nor sever your pretty head—

    all this nonsense ’bout the undead—

    for the record:

    spooks can’t cross runnin’ water

    without their Magna Mater—

    the very soil they sprang from—

    ain’t fuck shit to do with the church. The point

    of silver: it’s a superior heat conductor, star

    studded channel for electricity. Catches charge,

    the magic happens when I throw sparks.

    Sometimes you defibrillate sickness in a herd.

    An ancient covenant between Mothers,

    the strongest of mine for the best of yours,

    spare no sacrifice for a daughter

    of the blood, a man ain’t never been

    the savior of a land.

    Weaker Sex

    Women need twice as much meat,

    and thrice while pregnant. Pigs

    can have that salad. More iron

    than men can do with. Their guts

    are inefficient. We risk

    our lives to wait, the last possible second,

    because they don’t have what it takes:

    over 50,000 calories and pure marrow DNA

    to build a human brain. Actin’ like

    whoopsie daisy there’s a baby,

    we’re right handed as a species,

    premature on the titty, because the left

    holds you to our heartbeat while we

    forge society. Fat heads.

    If a man fell pregnant

    here’s what happens:

    he don’t make it three months

    before multiple organ collapse—

    if his fried limbic system don’t drive him

    carbon monoxide mad first.

    His tissues shred apart like pot roast,

    him or the babe starve,

    just a fetid slump of gore. There is no

    miracle of birth, no Father’s hand

    in a woman’s work.

    Zoonotic Approach

    There was an old jaguar

    up in Alaska, rescued rough,

    but that’s just 250 pounds of cat

    to love. They gave him the biggest box

    of straw, a whole shippin’ container,

    and some fun tree stumps.

    He was gettin’ on, long in the tooth,

    but his handler still sensed the flame

    of his youth. Capacity for joy.

    This was her boy. Always.

    A multinational team

    assembled to draw his own blood

    and spin fresh bone jelly to be

    injected straight into his calcified

    joints. The first operation of its kind.

    Predators are hard to keep under,

    the slightest mistake and he’d die.

    A room full of doctors takin’ cues from the handler

    because this was her boy.

    She never left his side.

    Eyes on his face and hands on his chest,

    knew if he hurt from barest of breaths.

    A lost jungle king of two interventions,

    able to jump, climb, and play again

    because one woman spoke for him.

    May 22, 2025
    environment, gothic, love, mental health, motherhood

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    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    The Ever After

    Exclusion Zone

    Summer solstice marks

    the season of unrest, a lament

    you’ve not heard. Once

    we could count on storms, now

    it just burns.

    The last who remember before.

    Flip phones or no phones,

    no names on the net,

    the computer’s place is a desk,

    mistakes stay in the past.

    From the window,

    you wouldn’t know.

    Sky blue and glare ghosts,

    1950s and 70s cheerful,

    streets empty of people.

    Vultures wheeling a house

    if the power blinks out.

    Never knew someone lived there.

    We scurry by in the small hours,

    stirred up like hopping mice, burrowing owls,

    and geckos. Little brown bats swoop

    in the moonglow. An approachable furrow.

    Leave my scratchings and readings, balmy

    as a gymrat’s armpit. Bearable.

    Not for long though.

    Time enough to greet her,

    sing some songs by the river,

    scry her face for clues, ask

    to know who I dream of,

    where I belong.

    Invasive Species

    To be clear,

    when it’s a tree spine snapping

    -40 degrees, my order remains

    iced black coffee.

    I rock up with more vigor

    than a fat flying squirrel.

    Wool, boots, hat and go.

    Black widows asleep in my bra—

    when it’s on—bees bustle between

    my thighs. Egg sack on my handlebars,

    I leave well enough alone.

    Skunks don’t trouble me none.

    Called a kit from the dump

    just because. Universal,

    that scared baby trill. Where mama,

    wee people hands grasping your skirt

    adds years to your life.

    Carrying all my groceries uphill over ice

    without choice. Guttered in dirt slush,

    well it be like that sometimes. Gravelly voice,

    so slow to thaw, but it’s alright. It’s worth it

    to mother what others miss.

    Antihero Landing

    Nobody squares up like a goose,

    twenty four flapping pounds of fuck you,

    these birds aren’t afraid to choose—

    violence, yes—but partners too.

    Oh they hit altitude,

    go the distance, up and over Everest.

    You read that right.

    Seal Team Six shit—

    sans imperialist trash. Silly

    my ass. Never leave the fallen

    behind. Be it your best friend

    or your mate. Pity the lamed

    fool whose dance card reads

    my name.

    Black Magic

    When I had nothin’

    but a place to sleep, a nest

    of discarded things. Push pin mural

    of gig posters off telephone poles,

    pretty wrappers, and feathers.

    Fallen branches strung with beads

    and fairy lights. Traded heat

    to smile inside. It’s not childish

    if it’s how you survive.

    Known a few ate guns for less,

    got a brain throws fay gang signs

    but I count myself blessed.

    Sparkly depressed. Back then.

    Bit like Tarzan. Bit like Tangled.

    Come at this bitch sideways

    and you’re best case scenario mangled.

    Peace is when I can see myself

    in my surroundings. This always seems

    like absolute destruction

    to those around me.

    Chthonic Singles in Your Area

    Women’s voices evolved

    for range and specificity.

    Language birthing.

    But men,

    theirs were selected for beauty.

    Pleasing texture. I think,

    I wonder, if First Woman walked

    today, would the Goddess know

    him by his timbre?

    A worthy man

    could only be broken

    in this world. His signature, however,

    intact. The most important piece.

    The oldest stories speak

    to her loss, to the betrayal.

    A dragon, a serpent, denied

    the sustenance of her consort.

    Without him, only monsters born.

    Not on her end of course, nah,

    she can do what she wants,

    ain’t no wrong.

    But Jin, that spells apocalypse!

    That’s just a woman’s prerogative.

    If it’s not at her pleasure it ain’t fit

    to exist. You get what you get.

    Consider this your litmus test.

    Bootstraps

    Anyways, it’s not glass slippers,

    it’s snake print Doc Martens.

    Helluva time tracing these tracks,

    closest I ever came to a prince

    this funny dream I had way back,

    running him down in the woods

    at night. Some freezing, tar feathered

    disaster boy. He was terrified.

    Good times.

    Can’t imagine what I look like

    on the other side.

    If you can’t get farther, you can just

    be more. Full eldritch horror.

    Gods said I’m bound to the earth.

    Been a fuckin’ grind, for sure,

    and the best bargain for youth

    is body. Baby, one sip

    of me and it’s the forever

    kind of sleep.

    Rule of Thumb

    I pour the fucks I give

    from a silver thimble, spiderwebs

    off this spindle. Even so,

    if I think well I say so, if there’s love

    at all I’ll let you know. I am unsubtle.

    Every day, every which way, because any day

    could be your last. More than Covid

    taught me that.

    Always take an extra beat

    for who shuffles their feet,

    leave an extra seat, push back.

    We’re tagged on a feed lot

    headed for slaughter.

    Sold a plan for life when we’re older.

    Wage slave, stripper, or soldier.

    I won’t roll over. I’m tired

    but I’m still my Mother’s daughter.

    The last text my coworker

    ever received was me miles from her

    asking if she needed anything

    at the hospital.

    May 19, 2025
    climate change, mental-health, motherhood, mythology, poetry, romance, storytelling

    • About
    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    Maternity Ward

    You Belong to a Woman

    Forgiveness is irrelevant,

    every day do better than.

    Closure, the fuck is that?

    Ain’t beatin’ breast on a casket.

    I’ll take any storm,

    Gatling staccato over when,

    you’re older then, below ground.

    While we’re both around, let’s go out

    where there’s no atlas, flood cracks

    where the road was, mirrored sky,

    what are you afraid of? Look

    into my eyes.

    Did you try?

    It’s all just busted boxes

    you call civilization. No power

    to define. Boy,

    I built you right the first time.

    Black Madonna

    Every curl or wave is where I lingered,

    every stubble or peach fuzz. Every note

    or color, you were born

    enough.

    You’re here for me to touch.

    Pretty pebbles in a stream of song,

    no competition if you’re all mine,

    there’s no hurry beauty, my baby,

    I have nothing but time.

    When you were very small,

    jostled and shadowed, loud, I paid

    special attention. Littles

    do latch on. You went on

    and on and on. Every dream

    you ever had until present,

    until you fell asleep talking

    in my lap.

    Or when you saw my eyes open

    and with a grubby hand

    fed me from your snack bag

    at five in the morning.

    No words necessary.

    Like when you left with me

    every razor in your house.

    Symbolic gestures help.

    Or when my phone lights up late

    and you’re looking for a reason,

    it’s old boots now, walk

    my love, you know

    it’s not my first rodeo.

    Toil and Trouble

    We’ll settle it in the kitchen,

    ain’t fuck all but an open mouth,

    can’t wail around peanut butter sandwich,

    here taste this, it’s missing

    something.

    Stir that sauce

    while I make coffee,

    do you take cream? Remind me

    what she used to say, how

    this dish is made.

    But double on the spice babe,

    only white is my surname,

    it’ll be okay. Just okay,

    I still consider this tame.

    Tongue like cartoon flames.

    Rings of fire are my safe space.

    Not a fan of the electric range.

    It’s best to see a thing, go analog.

    If it’s too hands off you get lost.

    Blistered palm, fire is hot. Adjust.

    May 9, 2025
    Brigid, mental-health, Mother’s Day, motherhood, poetry

    • About
    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    Necromantic

    Lavender Latte

    I wear florals to funerals—

    some unwritten rule I suppose—

    and gods spare me hours of wake.

    An ancient lady kissed my face,

    that part’s okay. Who’s to say

    which of those present were hers.

    See something you like, lips first.

    And I wasn’t settin’ foot in that church

    without caffeine.

    Kept the whole procession waiting

    apparently. The Firstborn Son

    certainly didn’t say anything.

    Up, down, up, down, the whole

    ordeal. Some kid picked his nose

    in the front row and squealed.

    Purple lights in a bird bath,

    because Catholic. Intermittent Latin.

    When I listened,

    birdsong and children

    at play. What goes on,

    it’s my way.

    Daddy did say

    when I got a little older

    I’d notice men do whatever

    I ask. To be careful with that.

    I don’t often task

    them with things. It’s true,

    they don’t say no to me.

    Ran an asshole off the road for me.

    Threw desks and came to blows

    because someone had the audacity

    to sit in my seat.

    Native Tongue

    Everyone knows these lines:

    your name I cry aloud in the night,

    first cut of my meat and sip

    of my wine. All that is mine

    to give. Oh I live

    for my first language.

    It’s not so much English.

    It’s any instrument, rhythm

    and remnant, rhapsody revenant,

    syllabic supplicant.

    Not the what of it, the how.

    Art of the ember, breathing fire

    wherever sparks be found.

    Spirits need a house.

    There’s no home without,

    no child lost, it’s not bricks

    or mortar, it’s warmth.

    Sooner or later, sooner or later,

    you return to the earth, herself

    a molten heart, a mighty hearth.

    Grip Strength

    I’ve pulled thrice my mass

    in a deadlift. Held an opponent

    twice as big in simple guard

    until he spent. Men

    are a bit like horses in that

    you can’t force them. A man

    needs to know you understand

    when you mount him. His nature

    and what you’re askin’.

    He’ll let you

    put him through his paces,

    move forward places no horse

    can see, well the gods gave that gift

    to me. I promise you’ll feel my weight,

    it’s eternity, what’s unseen and pervades.

    I’ve infinite flair for whimsy but baby,

    I can swing. Low and deep,

    they’ve never directly observed its waves,

    perhaps a wider stance, open hands,

    an anchor out to sea. It was always

    my gravity set you free.

    May 3, 2025
    beltane, gothic romance, poetry, storytelling

    • About
    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    Whole Milk

    Roses

    That doctor asked if I had a priest

    to address what ailed me, beyond

    his scope. As if my namesake stood

    so I could go back to crawlin’.

    Darlin’ ain’t no Son with rites to this,

    I’ll bloom in perfect darkness

    if I must. Went outside, spun,

    and looked up.

    When life gives you cortisol,

    best to build muscles. Fuck it,

    why not. Every night I walk,

    sometimes until dawn, enough,

    it’s enough to wear me down.

    And now, miles and miles of muster,

    of tears, a pungent bouquet

    of desolate years. Hard won

    in desert. Here, everything bites,

    what lives does so in spite of the light.

    Oh how I long for a wintry place,

    cuddly bees and frost flocked eyes,

    woolen embrace and fresh snow bright

    in my window. Woke one morn,

    and who did see me, wood neighbors’

    tracks where they’d gone.

    Big Cow Energy

    There’s a funny man with funny hats,

    used to wear a suit. Top floor city boy,

    then one day he just quit. Said this ain’t it.

    Remembrance of happiness, wrapped up

    and split. Money can’t buy this, but

    money can buy cows. The cutest,

    Highlands, and land. He’s no rancher,

    out there in Alaska. Got them

    just to love them and left alone.

    It’s very cold. You can imagine.

    When his best girl grew old,

    still had all her teeth. Such care.

    Daily massages up to his shoulders,

    her hips did crack brittle as branches.

    He summoned the vet, gray in the eye,

    asked her so softly, is it time? Is it Time?

    Not yet, she assured. She has a good life.

    You’ve given her a good life.

    Only then did he cry.

    Solar Punkalypse

    Won’t be no Mad Max, firstly:

    scurvy. Disease, generally. Rabies.

    Can’t shoot gangrene. Horsemen, indeed.

    How quaint. Who made all your saints?

    Cooked the last supper? The red tent.

    Your four riders are these: Death

    with a shovel, muck boots, and black

    Carhartt overalls.

    Mycelium with a barrow, seedlings,

    and patchwork threads. Off in the head.

    Grandma with wizened hands, knitted

    shawl like a cottage garden, hardest

    and owed respect.

    Bard with tooth and humor, puts a beat

    and adds flavor. Power in words.

    Pulled by oxen. They don’t move fast.

    In process of proving what lasts.

    Take a tumble who strays from their path.

    Someday you’ll understand.

    May 1, 2025
    beltane, folk, poetry, post-apocalyptic

    • About
    • Bedtime Story: East of the Sun & West of the Moon
    • Hail Merry
    • Hearth Lines
    • Paintings

    New Persephone

    Pomegranate Kisses

    Honey don’t be embarrassed,

    I’ve not so much thumbs

    as two green fists

    and all them topside did need

    to learn respect. I came

    all the way down here just

    to put Spring fingers all up in it,

    this grave dirt,

    and I’ll invent winter

    to touch where that flower

    keeps roots.

    The most beautiful I’ve ever seen—

    something coming from me—

    sweetness it sure seems

    like you’ve been waiting.

    My journey was long,

    you don’t make it easy,

    and maybe this flusters your plans,

    but I’ve never met a dog

    wouldn’t be lapping my hand,

    wouldn’t lie down for the night

    or forever, suffer faithful

    by my door. In the grand

    scheme of things, one mouth

    or three, there’s fruit

    on this tree, skulls beneath.

    Sometimes I’ll leave, lest

    I love you to death.

    Burst sudden forbidden color

    when I put you to bed.

    May Day

    Full throttle V cylinder, hundreds

    fold. Superbloom furious rushes

    sand blasted roads. The ride way,

    rumbles your legs, won’t hit the chorus

    if you don’t bring the rain.

    Discordant bellows, harmony not,

    when she’s in season it’s all you’ve got,

    don’t stop, don’t stop,

    hell’s gate promises only drought.

    Harder don’t mean faster, beware,

    if you can’t take direction

    she’ll take you there: crosses

    and candles in ditches, snared.

    Gremlin Bell

    One street donkey town,

    fuzzy baby boom, driftwood janky

    and an old timey saloon. Arizona

    about sums it up. Santa Muerte

    for un-Catholics, criminals, deviants,

    or drunks. Suicide gamblers

    exsanguinated of luck.

    Our Lady of the Dead,

    a real heavy lifter, do everything

    you can before you meet her. All

    she asks for. And me, I’m a helper,

    I won’t coddle your ass, but lover,

    stay on these hips and I’ll make it

    make sense.

    Give it time, give it distance,

    light some pillars and incense,

    whatever goes bump in your nights,

    throw hands enough it’s alright.

    Told you once before, I can ride.

    Till the end or die trying, it goes.

    Don’t need prayers if I’m yours.

    April 27, 2025
    beltane, gothic romance, persephone, poetry, southwest

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