wyrdwind

Light-hearted

You could say he was the Eliot to my Margo

Knew we both had the same screw loose

When this scrawny character avengin’ his sister

Went ape shit shirtless covered in blood

And we were both turned On

How we’d aggressively profess our love for each other

In the most un-Christian ways we possibly could

A straight face contest

I said if the price of bringin’ him into the world

Were releasin’ every misfortune on Earth

I’d do it over and over and over

He said he’d rather build a throne of corpses in Hell

If that’s where I’m at

Then know a single moment of peace in Heaven

Like deuces bitch change of management

I said I loved him so much

I could eat him, then throw him up

Just so I could eat him again

And he was like as a Woman should!

We are One in all things 😀

Made quite the pair in red

Watched me break necks

The first and only time I wore a dress

Showed any shape or skin

Rollin’ solo to the school dance

Uninterested causin’ problems stirrin’ up shit

I smiled when my beautiful little homewrecker

Showed me his trail of conquests

A daisy chain of I Swear I’m Straight

This is Just a One Time Thing

I Have a Girlfriend

We all heal in different ways

I asked, and he said Meh

You’re always right

We always spent time

At his house instead of goin’ out

‘Cause he was lookin’ after his single mom’s kids

The eldest always coparents

As his dad knocked her up with him and split

For a good God fearin’ white chick

And as his half dressed unbrushed little sister

High on chicken nuggets and popsicles

Jumped into my lap completely immodest

Just to drape my hair over her head

And touch my jewelry and bones

Then her own

Showed me her sticky grabby toes

He said I was the first big girl she’d seen besides their mom

So she didn’t know how to act

And I was like this is fine

He’d hide on the flipside of the custody arrangement

So we’d meet online in our favorite rainy jungle crater

Someplace so far from here, sky misty and grey

Giants thunderin’ by

I’d taken him there that one time

So I could show him there was so much life

Well he never did have to speak his mind

We always just as easily sat in silence

But I assured him one night

That he’d find real love someday

And he said he already knew what real love is

He wouldn’t cry or hold his breath for some dick

Who’d only ever be less than half the man I am

So I said if I ever have children

And they’re not you I’ll be bitterly disappointed

Who gives a fuck what your father says

The two of us standin’ in the rain

Any storm was call to mass, digital or otherwise

Everyone always remarked of us

That they could tell at great distance

When we were together

The most joyful clamor of laughter

Ringin’ out across the halls and compound

Through the walls

Louder than any church bells

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Girls Be Like

Speakin’ of popsicles

I’d drop pretty desert stones on her desk

And walk off nonchalant

Until one day she put a rock on my desk too

So we were friends

She was weird. I was weird.

We had notebooks of letters between us

Stories and doodles, every strange thought

Lyrics to horror songs

You know time is an illusion when it’s real

You’ll look back and I’ve always been there

We’d sneak off campus into the ghetto

To our favorite overgrown lot

Left bare after a meth trailer burned down

For no other reason than to eat a carne asada burrito

And all the snacks she wasn’t allowed to have at the house

Lest she get called a fat whore or some such remark

And I’d just hold her and pet her hair and talk

Play with her hands and arms under green branches so rare

Say that here with the palo verde and mesquite and taily grass

We could imagine another place

Acted like I didn’t notice

All the scabs and thin pink scars

When she told me she’d stood there in the dark

Holdin’ a pillow while her kidnapper slept

Who’d been confiscatin’ all her paychecks

As compensation for the food and roof over her head

I said I was so proud

Not because she didn’t do it

But because she stood up for herself

That meant on some level

She knew she deserved better

And that’s self worth

And she said she couldn’t see a future

Beyond indentured servitude and desert glare

Just black

So I said Bet

And stole her from that house under cover of darkness

Took her most important stuff and also the cats

Washed her of guilt

About leavin’ her brother behind

Because he would never stand on his own

And if she tried to carry him, she’d drown

It is not wrong to choose survival

Especially over someone incapable of reciprocal sacrifice

Well of course we swore a literal blood oath

With the infamous razors and a fairly fancy cup

That we’d be sisters in every life

That long ago we must have died side by side

And we’d be together when it’s time

And it meant more than she ever realized

When she said I was the only reason

She knew what a mother’s touch felt like

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Sailor Cosmos

Our worlds couldn’t’ve been more different

She came from a sweepin’ landscape

Of multimillion dollar mansions on hills

Traipsed by coyotes and javelinas

Type of house had real walls, a pool, a bar, and a prize cactus collection

Top marks from a good high school, big heart, brassy, marchin’ band

Strong, vibrant, passionate, loyal, and generous, I could go on

Oh I’m the best friend first to say your man isn’t good enough

If he trips up even once

But as we met in college, she never saw

My pathetic and worthless origins

What she saw was me

Or what was left between bouts

Round after round with my Night Sky I never spoke on

I’d walk out of the cold and dark

From my little apartment on the edge of town

To be a normal girl

And we’d prepare dinners together, chef-y stuff

Play games and talk at length about everythin’ under the sun

And quite a bit under the under, we were not shy about trauma

Cuddle for hours

Her psych major boyfriend (now husband) used to say

That I was such a good listener

That I listened so well

People immediately calmed down

Just because I was there

I remembered every detail

Well that last semester I was so pressed

To find a job, any job, to support myself

Dreadin’ the specter of Home

An impendin’ mountain of debt

That I just stopped, I just couldn’t anymore

I thought it was a joke

When the University told me I was chosen

To be among the top 3% of graduates

To receive some prestigious award for excellence

As I had never before experienced recognition

Aside from my best friend, but that’s like

A mom sayin’ my kid is the best kid

Like Jesus stop tellin’ everyone I’m the best poet you’ve ever read

How do you even say that with such confidence shit

Crayon pictures on the fridge shit

Not that it mattered in the end

For the drama I guess

Instead

I chose to focus

On preservin’ my last pile of bright things

Before I had to put them all away

We drank and teamed up in Borderlands

Instead of studyin’ for finals

Smooshed right up like pigeons on a power line

While her somehow both quiet and gregarious boyfriend kept an eye on us

From over top his group of friends playin’ cards

Two girls bein’ red wine philosophers

And she told me about her main girl Sailor Moon

How in the final manga arc she must battle Chaos

Absolute darkness and nothingness which predates existence

And instead of runnin’ away, she goes all in for her friends

She is unmade and yet

Her soul binds to the Galaxy Cauldron

She and the darkness become One

Her form is perfected

She becomes a constant

So even though strife and destruction cannot be prevented

Neither can the void stop her from bein’ born

Even from total loss, game over

She will always be born, over and over and over

The Silver Crystal draws its power from the heart

Of an ordinary girl

The unrelentin’ force of Pure Love

She resurrects herself and everyone else

Every star and planet, warp and weft, form to the formless

With her final attack

And she said it always made her so sad

Love’s perfection in the Black

Because if she has the power to save everyone

That means no one can save her

She must be the loneliest girl in the universe