wyrdwind

Nameless

Baby it was never man’s place to see

And he don’t need to know a thing

Only sense enough to know it’s me

Oh there’s the sound my instrument make

And I make and make and make

And for all the sudden shapes I’ve shaped

Grown every way in every space

The secret heart of a creatrix

It was always nothing loved me best

He only lives because she willed it

Knew no life outside her context

And love that’s not codependence

That’s the oldest kind of worthy man

Nesting spirit of a dark wind

There’s a hollow I keep just for him

A stretch of imagination

That’s all that’s left of my mate

She who loves who don’t exist

Tossed every token and every coin into the abyss

Pressed only shadows to my cheeks

Gave all sweetness of my breast so bleak

To a knot of infinite holding

Somewhere between heartbeats

Weren’t arms that held me in these sheets

No man ever knew me with his eyes

Saw no deeper than a sodden match

Fumble struck in the woods at night

And every once in a great long while

I’d feel cool breath down my spine

Some bloom of golden bioluminescence

Singing sleep ahead of sunrise

The softest promise of stolen time

Not yet, not yet the light, there’s time

Tender void of mine

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Apsu

Did he have a choice I wonder

Loved a woman forty times his size

And several years his senior

3 billion give or take

Or he knew only pleasure in her wake

Born from her waves in the first place

A reverence of silence and distinction meaningless

Whatever form he took the definition of

To her he was most precious

What to call a love like that

You are because I am

Hush, just like that, just like that

You’re perfect

The children were just accidents

Churned of quivering aftermath

He hated their senseless noise

But the world never could turn back

Before the dawn

They killed him in the end

Claimed some greater influence

Beat their chests upon his corpse

And she’s a woman I understand

Wild with revenge

Every child fit to forfeit

If she isn’t owed him

Her only sustenance

Leave it to lesser men

To imagine their sky born of bloodshed

Matricide

Kingdoms built off tears she cried

Wherever she went in her searching

I choose to believe they’re reunited

The ocean sleeps as they embrace

Her currents slow to a snail’s pace

Civilization weighs less than rain

Amid the clamoring wail of starvation

Tiamat reminds him again and again and again

And remembers the world a quieter place

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Samhain

Savor this

You want his voice to hitch

Drawn up tight as a knife’s edge

Vibrato phantom string bent

Flash expansion murmuration

That’s how you pull a death wish

His mind dandelion in the wind

Bang

Oh it’s better if you made him wait

Rolling tremors cluster lightning

Bridegroom to your grave

Or shall I say Oweynagat

Guess your mama never said

This is how flowers are made

How you bring the trees to mast

A man should be responsive

Knows his head don’t belong to him

Surrenders every wretched inch

To the task at hand

And you the will command it

A woman will command it

Healing is the darkest magic

Grace in equal measure of damage

Ecstasy is inflicted

The right relationship with your land

I called it a linear equation

When that woman said my hands

Were lined with rage and anguish

The violence of my spirit in survival

Gone a place so few return from

Every part of me was broken

And I rebuilt myself completely alone

But what she told me first

Was that I was an angel

Bit the urge to roll my eyes so hard

I’d poke holes in the floor of Heaven

She said I was full of so much love

My capacity was enormous

That I was a healer (heard that one before)

And God only sends me

When something needs to get done

I don’t fuck with small potatoes

Well you know me my loves

If ever healed a fool that’s because

I zeroed out the scales

Nobody be thanking by ass

Except for certain males

With that Lady Idris Elba effect

Harder you hit ’em more they kiss the hand

And facts are facts are facts

First of all God is a Woman

Secondly I’m a swan

Common mistake

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Dark Horse

It could be genetic

Got cleaners for the mob and CIA

It could be the lifetime subscription

Included at birth to Nightmares Daily

I’ve kept them to myself until recently

Even when I couldn’t tell

If I was dreaming while asleep

Or dreaming while awake

Took my father’s glasses to bed

And said I had to See

Sleep was serious business to me

I thought everyone felt this way

And that’s why my parents stared at nothing

All day

Husks of what humans should be

Figured someone should do something

If adults were useless and unresponsive

At least it made some sense

So I learned what nightmares teach instead

Pulled up my pants

Or rather my dress

And went all in

Secret life of the battle princess

People look right past if you’re quiet

So quiet

And it’s fine

I was fine, after a fashion

People thought I was one of them

And I am, but there are some moments

Say I’m on my period

And walk miles to work in the dark

While a dull knife scoops my uterus

Metaphorical

When my boss is cruel for no reason

Runs his mouth because he thinks he can

Makes my happy baby coworker cry

Shows poor judgment or uneven discipline

Bad manners

Weakness

Takes a snide tone

Asks a snotty leading question

And I answer soft and sweetness

Warm and calm

And all the blood drains from his face

Turns a ghost still standing

And I never see his face again

After he says Okay

Pivots right around and leaves

Because in those moments

Split seconds

I can see the choreography

Scarlet CNS

100% mind body connection

How many steps, how much force

Precise trajectory of my 5-in-1

The weight in my palm

What he’ll look like on the floor

How he’ll fall

Where to land the compounds

My third favorite color on the wall

More

Take one step more

That’s behavior activate

Hard wired instinct

I don’t have to think

I guess this all sounds pretty scary

Hey

When do nightmares stop being nightmares?

When you’re no longer afraid

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Wings

My favorite cinematic trope is like

The final battle highest possible stakes

Everything happening so fast

Shit exploding left right center

And there’s a slow song playing

Because bad bitch only has eyes for her man

She’s the picture of serenity amid carnage

And the slow song can be implied

Whatever room they’re in together

May as well be the Garden at Midnight

May as well be the very first time

They know what another human look like

Did they dream a wild shade before then

Reach for each other without reason

Know the ache of spring unsatisfied

I always imagined his trusting nature

His shuddering cry of surprise

The darkness of her eyes

Woman was a hunter

Man was a sacrifice

She knew him by his timbre

Without so much as words

This one’s Mine

And I always imagined how they died

In a forest thick with so much life

Together by their pile of embers

Children, grands, and pups up and gone

A cursory breeze under the stars

High above the canopy’s branches

Like the trace of a single finger

Says do you remember when

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A Capella

Coyote is the union of opposites

And furthest extremes

Finder of ways

Mischief, rain, song, Polaris

The spark of pure primordial chaos, raw magic

Sang humanity into existence from bones

Follows First Man and First Woman

From this universe to the next

Their constant companion

A species who loves and thrives

Despite society’s revulsion

Guess this shithole tried so hard

To make me ashamed of being alive

That I just tripled down

In the opposing direction

I exist

Always and forever

You cannot hurt me in any way that matters

A girl without a mirror

Sees herself in every living thing around her

Any landscape is her mother

She doesn’t disappear

She’s everywhere

My girl and I cackled until we cried at Panda Express

Because my fortune cookie read

Peace

Is when your inner and outer worlds look the same

And I said buckle up bitch

Why this why that why do we exist

I did it for the acoustics