Nameless
Baby it was never man’s place to see
And he don’t need to know a thing
Only sense enough to know it’s me
Oh there’s the sound my instrument make
And I make and make and make
And for all the sudden shapes I’ve shaped
Grown every way in every space
The secret heart of a creatrix
It was always nothing loved me best
He only lives because she willed it
Knew no life outside her context
And love that’s not codependence
That’s the oldest kind of worthy man
Nesting spirit of a dark wind
There’s a hollow I keep just for him
A stretch of imagination
That’s all that’s left of my mate
She who loves who don’t exist
Tossed every token and every coin into the abyss
Pressed only shadows to my cheeks
Gave all sweetness of my breast so bleak
To a knot of infinite holding
Somewhere between heartbeats
Weren’t arms that held me in these sheets
No man ever knew me with his eyes
Saw no deeper than a sodden match
Fumble struck in the woods at night
And every once in a great long while
I’d feel cool breath down my spine
Some bloom of golden bioluminescence
Singing sleep ahead of sunrise
The softest promise of stolen time
Not yet, not yet the light, there’s time
Tender void of mine
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Apsu
Did he have a choice I wonder
Loved a woman forty times his size
And several years his senior
3 billion give or take
Or he knew only pleasure in her wake
Born from her waves in the first place
A reverence of silence and distinction meaningless
Whatever form he took the definition of
To her he was most precious
What to call a love like that
You are because I am
Hush, just like that, just like that
You’re perfect
The children were just accidents
Churned of quivering aftermath
He hated their senseless noise
But the world never could turn back
Before the dawn
They killed him in the end
Claimed some greater influence
Beat their chests upon his corpse
And she’s a woman I understand
Wild with revenge
Every child fit to forfeit
If she isn’t owed him
Her only sustenance
Leave it to lesser men
To imagine their sky born of bloodshed
Matricide
Kingdoms built off tears she cried
Wherever she went in her searching
I choose to believe they’re reunited
The ocean sleeps as they embrace
Her currents slow to a snail’s pace
Civilization weighs less than rain
Amid the clamoring wail of starvation
Tiamat reminds him again and again and again
And remembers the world a quieter place
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Samhain
Savor this
You want his voice to hitch
Drawn up tight as a knife’s edge
Vibrato phantom string bent
Flash expansion murmuration
That’s how you pull a death wish
His mind dandelion in the wind
Bang
Oh it’s better if you made him wait
Rolling tremors cluster lightning
Bridegroom to your grave
Or shall I say Oweynagat
Guess your mama never said
This is how flowers are made
How you bring the trees to mast
A man should be responsive
Knows his head don’t belong to him
Surrenders every wretched inch
To the task at hand
And you the will command it
A woman will command it
Healing is the darkest magic
Grace in equal measure of damage
Ecstasy is inflicted
The right relationship with your land
I called it a linear equation
When that woman said my hands
Were lined with rage and anguish
The violence of my spirit in survival
Gone a place so few return from
Every part of me was broken
And I rebuilt myself completely alone
But what she told me first
Was that I was an angel
Bit the urge to roll my eyes so hard
I’d poke holes in the floor of Heaven
She said I was full of so much love
My capacity was enormous
That I was a healer (heard that one before)
And God only sends me
When something needs to get done
I don’t fuck with small potatoes
Well you know me my loves
If ever healed a fool that’s because
I zeroed out the scales
Nobody be thanking by ass
Except for certain males
With that Lady Idris Elba effect
Harder you hit ’em more they kiss the hand
And facts are facts are facts
First of all God is a Woman
Secondly I’m a swan
Common mistake
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Dark Horse
It could be genetic
Got cleaners for the mob and CIA
It could be the lifetime subscription
Included at birth to Nightmares Daily
I’ve kept them to myself until recently
Even when I couldn’t tell
If I was dreaming while asleep
Or dreaming while awake
Took my father’s glasses to bed
And said I had to See
Sleep was serious business to me
I thought everyone felt this way
And that’s why my parents stared at nothing
All day
Husks of what humans should be
Figured someone should do something
If adults were useless and unresponsive
At least it made some sense
So I learned what nightmares teach instead
Pulled up my pants
Or rather my dress
And went all in
Secret life of the battle princess
People look right past if you’re quiet
So quiet
And it’s fine
I was fine, after a fashion
People thought I was one of them
And I am, but there are some moments
Say I’m on my period
And walk miles to work in the dark
While a dull knife scoops my uterus
Metaphorical
When my boss is cruel for no reason
Runs his mouth because he thinks he can
Makes my happy baby coworker cry
Shows poor judgment or uneven discipline
Bad manners
Weakness
Takes a snide tone
Asks a snotty leading question
And I answer soft and sweetness
Warm and calm
And all the blood drains from his face
Turns a ghost still standing
And I never see his face again
After he says Okay
Pivots right around and leaves
Because in those moments
Split seconds
I can see the choreography
Scarlet CNS
100% mind body connection
How many steps, how much force
Precise trajectory of my 5-in-1
The weight in my palm
What he’ll look like on the floor
How he’ll fall
Where to land the compounds
My third favorite color on the wall
More
Take one step more
That’s behavior activate
Hard wired instinct
I don’t have to think
I guess this all sounds pretty scary
Hey
When do nightmares stop being nightmares?
When you’re no longer afraid
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Wings
My favorite cinematic trope is like
The final battle highest possible stakes
Everything happening so fast
Shit exploding left right center
And there’s a slow song playing
Because bad bitch only has eyes for her man
She’s the picture of serenity amid carnage
And the slow song can be implied
Whatever room they’re in together
May as well be the Garden at Midnight
May as well be the very first time
They know what another human look like
Did they dream a wild shade before then
Reach for each other without reason
Know the ache of spring unsatisfied
I always imagined his trusting nature
His shuddering cry of surprise
The darkness of her eyes
Woman was a hunter
Man was a sacrifice
She knew him by his timbre
Without so much as words
This one’s Mine
And I always imagined how they died
In a forest thick with so much life
Together by their pile of embers
Children, grands, and pups up and gone
A cursory breeze under the stars
High above the canopy’s branches
Like the trace of a single finger
Says do you remember when
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A Capella
Coyote is the union of opposites
And furthest extremes
Finder of ways
Mischief, rain, song, Polaris
The spark of pure primordial chaos, raw magic
Sang humanity into existence from bones
Follows First Man and First Woman
From this universe to the next
Their constant companion
A species who loves and thrives
Despite society’s revulsion
Guess this shithole tried so hard
To make me ashamed of being alive
That I just tripled down
In the opposing direction
I exist
Always and forever
You cannot hurt me in any way that matters
A girl without a mirror
Sees herself in every living thing around her
Any landscape is her mother
She doesn’t disappear
She’s everywhere
My girl and I cackled until we cried at Panda Express
Because my fortune cookie read
Peace
Is when your inner and outer worlds look the same
And I said buckle up bitch
Why this why that why do we exist
I did it for the acoustics
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